Tuesday, December 25, 2012
Friday, December 21, 2012
Its been another very long day. Frustrated, angry, sad. Just a roller coaster of emotions. Im afraid of what is to come. I don't know how I will able to keep my job. I've made one mistake after another and another. The sad thing is I am a really good and loving person. Something is missing and I have to find it. Its already too late but before I lose the rest of my life I need to pick up the pieces and carry on. I need help to do that and its the hardest thing to admit.
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
Well it looks like I will be snowed in tomorrow. They say 9 to 12 inches of snow and 50mph winds. Not good. I doubt our plants will even be able to run tomorrow. Its gonna be hell. I guess I will do some reading tonight and watch tv. Brought my laptop and paperwork home from work so I can work at home tomorrow if I have to. Not much else going on today. Got lots to think about.
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
Why does it take some of us making the same mistakes over and over again before we can admit we have a problem and reach out for help? Why must it be so hard to ask for help? The fear keeps us from doing seemingly simple things to most normal people. Our past haunts us whether we are aware of it or not. Every trial and tribulation that has brought us to become who we now are. Once we can bring ourselves to accept what we need and want to feel whole we can then begin the process of change and withstand a much greater potential of being successful. This is my admission and this is the beginning of my journey.