Its been another very long day. Frustrated, angry, sad. Just a roller coaster of emotions. Im afraid of what is to come. I don't know how I will able to keep my job. I've made one mistake after another and another. The sad thing is I am a really good and loving person. Something is missing and I have to find it. Its already too late but before I lose the rest of my life I need to pick up the pieces and carry on. I need help to do that and its the hardest thing to admit.